I've had a high rolerance for pain for years-this i knew. after awhile you just make it work. this pain, though, goes nowhere. Lortab takes the edge off of it, but that's it. many nights and mornings it's at an 8 on the pain scale. after I've worked too much or have to ride in a car the pain intensifies to a 9 bordering a 10. I don't scream, but I do yell. nothing abates it. suddenly I have a new appreciation and empathy for those people who live with chronic pain. I'm lucky that mine can probably be diminished if not totally eradicated. that is such a blessing. I can't live like this much longer.
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Oh, Kimmah. I have been too busy to keep up with blogland lately, so I just discovered your last several entries.
I am keeping my fingers crossed for you and praying and whatever else. You are so right that we never realize what "normal" feels like and how much we should appreciate it until something goes wrong.
I just passed the one year anniversary of a back injury that has meant chronic and constant pain in my right leg. It is the first thing I think about in the morning when I put weight on my leg. Sometimes I don't even want to get out of bed because as long as I am laying down I can pretend that the pain won't be there.
I just tried to deal with it on my own for a long time. The pain was there, but it wasn't so bad that I couldn't ignore it. But then it did intensify to the point that it was distracting me from work. I decided it was time to see a doctor about two months ago.
I've been for X-rays and we're trying some exercises and other strategies. He thinks he has a good diagnosis, but if the pain continues too much then we will do an MRI. Like you, I finally reached the point that I said, "Just find out what is wrong so we can do something to fix me."
I hope that you don't think that I am trying to "steal your thunder" by telling my own tale of woe, especially since your pain seems to be so much more intense than mine. What I am trying to do is let you know that I understand, that I appreciate what you have been experiencing, and that I want you to feel well as soon as possible.
I hope you go ahead and get your MRI, hon. I think it's best to get a full and complete picture of the entire situation. Part of my problem, in hindsight, was that I didn't get another MRI sooner. No one thought this could ahve possibly gotten as bad as it has this quickly, so I was in PT with traction this time last year. I just wonder if that did any more damage, you know? Probably not, but it was sheer torture to use that machine.
Good luck with your PT. Back injuries are not something to take lightly and until one has had back trouble, it is really impossibly to grasp the scope, I think. I know I certainly never did.
Keep me posted on your leg pain! I will be thinking about you. Get well soon! I feel like I'm going to be well by the end of the summer, which is a huge relief.
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